inherit this parrot
of seventeen--
this merit of anxious
(excel)lency spread
across spreadsheets
bedsheets and cold
feet
preening itself
in constant fear of
being a deadbeat
my beak is dripping
from fighting with the
feathers that don't
fit
the constant clamour
to color-code my cardinal
calamity feels like bird
shit
i draw stars
that dance with
the freckles
on your arms
while you plant
flowers in my stomach
and let the vines
squeeze me
in two
but this kudzu
seeded within
aligning my spine
with yours
lacks a distinct
sense of
suffocation
our songbird
dispositions
hum in harmony
the beating wings of
our hearts
melodizing with
the stuttering
singing from our
throats
i stare at the
popcorn ceiling
and listen to your
gentle breathing as
you fall asleep
other the phone
angrily asking
myself why i am
letting myself
fall for you
so easily
but when the sun
peeks through
the cotton laye
a green ocean bivouac
leaves fluttering against
the cerulean sky
dark doe eyes
glazed and grazing
upon the bountiful earth
the ghost of the moon
hangs in daylight
a hush in the valley
all is
calm
all is
safe
a twig snaps
the crackle of leaves
then everything
is blurred lights
horns and hooves
upturned
and a herd
forty-nine strong
slips into the dirt
blood seeping
brilliant crimson
painting the grass
the survivors
limp away
while oaks crane
their branches
peering down upon
the carnage
no shock, no hysteria
as if it was expected
as if it was
normal
soft creaks
moans
fill the forest
and a man
on t
spiderweb hands
stick to me and
we are in the van
windows fogging up
your sister has
heroin needles
scattered around
the floorboards
the sun spills
it's way onto my
bare chest and
i wonder why
being in love
feels so
empty
we're in bedrooms
that aren't ours
with paintings
of jesus
on the walls
you bruise my
hipbones and call
it art
your watercolor
daydream
when we break up
you paint your hair
the shade of the sky
and draw me with (t)horns
raised up on
the wooden cross
my limbs writhing
not ready
not ready
not ready
to bleed
stuck with your
hard wood
jammed into
my spine
ohoho
inherit this parrot
of seventeen--
this merit of anxious
(excel)lency spread
across spreadsheets
bedsheets and cold
feet
preening itself
in constant fear of
being a deadbeat
my beak is dripping
from fighting with the
feathers that don't
fit
the constant clamour
to color-code my cardinal
calamity feels like bird
shit
i draw stars
that dance with
the freckles
on your arms
while you plant
flowers in my stomach
and let the vines
squeeze me
in two
but this kudzu
seeded within
aligning my spine
with yours
lacks a distinct
sense of
suffocation
our songbird
dispositions
hum in harmony
the beating wings of
our hearts
melodizing with
the stuttering
singing from our
throats
i stare at the
popcorn ceiling
and listen to your
gentle breathing as
you fall asleep
other the phone
angrily asking
myself why i am
letting myself
fall for you
so easily
but when the sun
peeks through
the cotton laye
a green ocean bivouac
leaves fluttering against
the cerulean sky
dark doe eyes
glazed and grazing
upon the bountiful earth
the ghost of the moon
hangs in daylight
a hush in the valley
all is
calm
all is
safe
a twig snaps
the crackle of leaves
then everything
is blurred lights
horns and hooves
upturned
and a herd
forty-nine strong
slips into the dirt
blood seeping
brilliant crimson
painting the grass
the survivors
limp away
while oaks crane
their branches
peering down upon
the carnage
no shock, no hysteria
as if it was expected
as if it was
normal
soft creaks
moans
fill the forest
and a man
on t
spiderweb hands
stick to me and
we are in the van
windows fogging up
your sister has
heroin needles
scattered around
the floorboards
the sun spills
it's way onto my
bare chest and
i wonder why
being in love
feels so
empty
we're in bedrooms
that aren't ours
with paintings
of jesus
on the walls
you bruise my
hipbones and call
it art
your watercolor
daydream
when we break up
you paint your hair
the shade of the sky
and draw me with (t)horns
raised up on
the wooden cross
my limbs writhing
not ready
not ready
not ready
to bleed
stuck with your
hard wood
jammed into
my spine
ohoho
this is just a place for me to word vomit. also!! sorry if i don't respond to comments/notes. this really is my diary, and usually, i go here when i wanna escape from people for a bit. hope you understand <3 thanks for reading!!
awww thank you oh gosh!! my inbox just exploded with favorites <3 i absolutely love your work :')) you deserve more recognition!! AHH THANK YOU FOR THE WATCH TOO AHH SCREAMS p.s. when if your birthday?? bc i read that you're an aries and so am i and we're the same age so?? HNNG